There are a lot of things that I have considered so far. Firstly is how much people really care about me. My entire family has been very, very concerned and loving about this. I think they're more scared than I am! I really appreciate their efforts (taking my husband and I's names to the temple, praying and fasting for us, researching the disease, and sending me informational links.
Second, I considered what effect this would have on my ability to get pregnant. It's weird how you don't really care about that until there is a possibility you won't have it anymore. Turns out, it is generally okay unless you develop high blood pressure (which happens). It's considered a high-risk pregnancy and they recommend genetic counselling to prevent passing it on to your kids.
Third, I considered my mortality. Depending on the site you look at (oh internet...), I have a significant or 40% chance of developing brain and/or heart aneurysms. Those seem really scary. I guess if I die right away though, it wouldn't hurt! Some people don't have the luxury of a painless death.
Fourth, I've already been told to start going to church in order to be healed. I believe that faith-healing can work and there is no harm whatsoever in asking for help, strength, or healing from God. However, I'm quite sure this is not some form of punishment for not going to church. I think people who don't go to church can be healed and helped just as much as those who do. Anyway, I'm just concerned that this will be exploited to help whatever agendas - be it science or religion. It's simply health, and it's simply a genetic mutation. These things happen. If I pray really hard and die, it's not God's fault. If I don't pray and get healed, it could very well have been achieved with the help of my family's prayers and fasts.
Fifth, and least concerning is health insurance and paying for this thing.
Anyway, I just want to thank you all very much for your help and love! I appreciate it!
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