I know I've said this before, but I get scared.
I saw the nephrologist. He said a lot of things I already knew. I didn't really get any answers from the visit, unfortunately, but it isn't his fault. Everyone is different. He wants me to come back next year. Why? He can't help me with the frequent urination. He can't fix the pain. He can't stop potential UTIs. He can't stop the progression. He can't do anything.
I try not to think about it at all anymore, but when I do, I get hopeless and I get frightened. If it's this bad right now and I'm only in stage 1, I can't imagine how it will be years from now. I hear the pain is like passing kidney stones or like you've been in a car accident. I don't want to live in pain.
